How Stupid Was I

 How Stupid Was I

I saw it

I knew it

I ran in anyway.

How Stupid Was I

Like a blood hound certain of a scent

I saw the future I dreamt of

I turned the particles of my dreams into concrete

And I walked proudly into my new world, with her.

How Stupid Was I

I took a deep breath at the bottom of my ocean

I wanted the death of monotony to be my vengeance

I wanted her love to baptize me, free me.  

How Stupid Was I

And how Stupid am I

sitting here now, broken and sunken

when I knew... I always knew

I wanted to die from this world and be reborn in her eyes

I am tired of this world

she... woke... me... up

How Stupid Was I

Now I turn my head from the sky

and look back down to the shackle on my ankle

and hear the clinks of the chain,

Just like everyone else around me.

How Stupid Was I