Faster

Like a horse ridden by a demon in a hot desert until it falls and dies of heat and fatigue
Like an eagle that flew so high and so fast it forgot where it came from
Like a gas tank so empty it hisses when you open it
I've gone so fast, so high and so far, I can't tell if I'm still moving
Too scared to look left, too scared to look right, terrified to look behind.
Fast is all I know to go, doesn't matter where, just not here.

Slowing down makes me feel the pain, slowing down makes me remember.
I can't slow down, I can't feel the pain, it hurts too much.
Stopping would kill me, stopping would mean facing it, facing it all.
I just need to go, I just need to run, I just need to fly.

They all want me to give a part of me they would never give.
They all say I owe them, what about what they did to me?
They used me, they use who I was, now I owe them?
If they can't find me then they can't use me, ever, again.
This one-way flight is to save me, from them.

I feel safe in this nowhere, yes, nowhere is now my home, because nowhere doesn't exist.
They won't find me, they won't use me, ever again
I have taken a flight that has no destination and I'm urgently rushing.
My pain is my fuel and it has no end, so I will race faster and faster, forever.
Faster is how I feel alive, faster is how the pain goes away, faster is how I lock them away.

God of speed hear me, let Anubis find me not, poison his search, spare my fate.
My heart will not be weighed, my life will not be written, by them.
No more, like the dead horse, no more like the gas tank, forget me, like the eagle
I comfort my escape, I beg to evaporate these memories, let me blaze my anger 
Let me run, let me fly for you could not manage my wrath if you grab my wrist.