REFILL

Sometimes I can't tell if I'm asleep or awake.
Sometimes I can't tell If I'm in love or  in hate.
The way I feel makes me wanna tear my hear out
But even when I stay calm, I'm still filled with doubt


I see the world but I can't touch it.
I feel the world but I can't be it.
Is the world big or am I just too small
While some eat planets and others stand tall.


It's great to be great
And maybe that was their fate 
But how come that is fair and I have to wait
For my time in a time where time comes with hate


The grass I walk on is only the hair on the back of a beast
I lost my knife so I can't kill it have my feast.
Kill it and conquer, like I should with my life
But it's killing me and piling on strife.


I don't know what to do or even where to go
Some people help and other act like they don't know
Haters, blockers, helpers or challenges
Is this how I'm supposed to carve out my happiness?


Her love I found and it gave me a corner
I felt some peace and I stopped being a mourner.
But God if you chose to see me out the corner of your eye
I just have one question, cuz I gotta ask why.


It's not about you but it hasn't been about me
Cuz this life has taught me that aint shit free.
All I have is what life gave me.
And if that's life then should no one save me?


Some made it big, others made it great.
So I hope the same serving falls on my plate.
I'm angry, I'm patient, I'm diggin, I'm waitn.
For theirs, for mine, for ours just to make it.


I want the world to stop sleepin and see me
Or am I the one that needs to take the green pill.
I can't tell if the world is too small or am I too big
Maybe that's why I can't move, so I'm hopin for a refill.


Since I lost my knife, I guess I'll use my teeth
Grab it's horns and stand ground with my feet
This bull called life is what you gave me
Eat or be eaten is the motto that will save me.


So maybe the world is too big or even too small
I guess once you have friends and you find love 
then you have it all.
Well maybe no bank accounts at Fort Knox for me
But I can enjoy life's many pleasures for a while, for free.


So don't worry about answering why,
At least not for now but definitely when I die.
We can replay my life and see what I missed
And you can tell me that I really was in bliss.


Back to life I go, refilled and refreshed
My soda of hope sippin like its the best
So here I come world, I'm taking my share
And even if you never hear me, I don't really care.