Thursday, March 22, 2012

Mortar and Love

The pieces of my heart lay in a pile. 
I used everything else to build my life.
Steel and iron grunting away at the gym
filled my nights.
The growl and speed of my engine 
tore through my nightmares and kept me safe.

The brick and wood of my basement apartment 
was my dungeon that kept me hid.
Giggling flesh of women getting dressed to leave 
were my daily entertainment like a court jester to a king
My kingdom was complete.

Until you came and pointed at the pile. 
Reuse the pieces of my heart?
You're kidding right?
But you weren't and you did what no one else did.
You taught me how to use those pieces to decorate my life.

Now the nights at the gym didn't end with me going home alone.
I no longer had to roar my engine to shred my torment
As I now had your voice to calm my soul.
And my basement no longer felt like a prison
Because you were in it, waiting for me to come home.

Now my jest is spending time with you
and creating smiles that will last forever.
Much longer than the giggles of forgotten faces
and more filling than their nightly feasts.

The scrap pile of my heart in your hands, 
became the treasure and art of my life.
Building me up better and stronger
than the brick, steel and chains of my pain and vengeance.

Thank you  

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Rainbows

My rainbow fell over
No longer held up with dreams and desires.
The beams, rotted away with life's nightmares
Left to dry out in the sun of my despair.

Scorching heat of reality burning the colors
No more red, no more green, no more blue, no more yellow
Just brown and black of a burnt forest 
And crinkling ash instead of a peaceful brook.

Standing over its remains
My world in this curve at my feet
Winds' loneliness whispering in my ear 
The smell of singed hope teasing my nose.

How will I walk this earth
No rainbow to walk towards
No tower to store my dreams
Just tumble weeds of reality brushing by me.

I guess in time, I will collect new dreams, new hopes.
And this journey of life will have some purpose again
The steps I will take will seem new and scary.
But time, time always has a story to tell.